The End of the Beginning

Well, the waiting is finally coming to an end. I met with my doctor on Tuesday and we made plans to begin more intensive treatment to kick these little buggers out of my system. I know that the hard work is only beginning and the end is not actually in sight yet, but it's a step closer in that direction.

In the next week I will begin 8 new medications, both pharmaceuticals and natural meds, that will begin killing the Lyme spirochetes/bacteria. Some of the meds will also help counteract side effects like additional pain and nausea. And still others are there to help preserve any of the good bacteria in my system. Honestly, I'm terrified of what will happen. When treating Lyme, it's a given that things must get worse before they get better. But seriously, how scary is it to think of it causing amnesia, complete numbness in limbs, spasms, fevers, pain worse than what I already experience, hearing and sight impairment....the list goes on. And these aren't the kind of side effects in fine print or spoken at lightning speed on prescription drug commercials; these are likely scenarios! Prayers to be able to endure these things in order to get to healing would be much appreciated!

It's hit me like a ton of bricks that this may mean the ending of working too. The next week or two will tell what's to come in that realm, but my mind is spinning as I try to think through it. I know I must trust the Lord to provide and worry less about tomorrow when today is enough of a handful in itself. Taking every thought captive--a seemingly crazy time to have to learn that discipline, but perhaps it's one of the many things the Lord has to show me in all of this.
My energy level is lower than ever, so the goal for today is to rest as much as possible in the next few hours, and then muddle through a shift at the restaurant.

Pretty sure I just got a new full time job though--taking medications, going to doctor’s appointments, and resting!